to what makes me tick.

so lets see where i left off from the last entry...

So i guess im now training for 10 weeks to become a sergeant. So far there's still 8 more weeks. Bummer. Somehow being back in tekong doesnt help in keeping my spirits up...
What's worse, i got maself into one of the 2 most "siong" companies in the School of Infantry SPECialists (a.k.a Sispec). And that company goes by the name of Echo~

Let's just say im trying real hard to keep motivating myself to endure the current training. Perhaps i keep comparing my fate with others who were posted to Police or got a rather easier NS life ahead of `em. Ahh shucks. I guess the only things motivating me to endure through the tough training is the fact that there are people in Sispec whom i assumed were less capable than me. So there arises this feeling of not wanting to lose out to them. (that's the ego-istic side of me) o_0"

other than that, somehow i realise that its really the survival of the fittest in the army. One moment u can be friends and suddenly he's being very individualistic. so i guess everyone except me really wants to cross over to OCS. im not very sure myself why im not as enthusiastic as them to become an officer~ baah.

and yeah, ive got a seriously effed-up sergeant major. Keeps saying something like, "God is great..." and "God wants me to noe.." whenever he catches u for doing smthing wrong. On other occasions, he spouts profanity non-stop and cant even tolerate seeing happy soldiers. Seriously, i hate to admit that he is one heck-of-a bastoot. Even made fun of an indian soldier by the name of Mutu. Jus imagine them doing this:

"Okae everybody, oh the count of 3. one...two...three! Muuuu-Thuuuu~"

Man, can't tolerate him and his legion of retards. o_0"

So i guess im left with this fate of mine. Hoping not to be posted back to Tekong yet again once i finish this basic course. Please get me an admin job? =P