its tiring.

everybody has their wants in life. some might act on it while the others are happy being where they are. and I'll never blame them.

currently, this is what i want:

• a proper paying job
• a well-toned body
• passing my remaining 2 exams
• a soul mate?

I've been working hard realizing them. But I'm feeling unsure on the last point. Feeling like my efforts are for naught.

Picture myself as the court jester, cajoling the queen to open her heart. Only to vanish when she finally does.

like the music video of "Gym Class Heroes - The Queen and I"